REsTLeSS

I am just going to let it go..

That's what I tell myself everyday.
Today will be the day I can finally be at peace.

It happens.
It truly happens. 
I start to feel completely at peace...

Sometimes it lasts only minutes
Other times it lasts hours

But thoughts creep in.

You know that feeling when you know that you need to sleep. You know it's way past your bed time. You know your body is tired, exhausted, and worn...but you can't sleep.

Restless.
It feels this way trying to let go. 
I'm anxiously calm.

I know what I should do, I know how I should feel, I know I crave to relax and let go.

Something.
Always.
Still.
Hangs on.

- Heather