Happy ?

It's strange to feel this way.
I don't know if it's hopeful, at peace, happy, or what.
It's foreign to feel this way about my infertility. 

I hope the feeling stays.
I hope it lasts long enough for my to truly grasp on to it, and hold it tight.
I hope.

It's always hoping.
Always hoping that  you've made it through the worst part, the denial, the anger, the sadness, the guilt.
Never knowing if the peace you feel is really it.

Is this feeling real ?

Heather