Mother's Day

This is the third year in a row I have been hoping to celebrate Mother's Day.

I get anxiety thinking about it.

I'm trying not to.
I'm trying to stay relaxed, calm, accepting, and happy for all the wonderful mothers out there (including my own).

I am trying.

It's like a small twitch when someone mentions it.
I get a brief mental image of a pregnant woman, or a mom with kids, or a grandma.
What joy that must be...to be someone's mother.

I understand that mother's are overlooked.
They are overlooked for all the wonderful, selfless, loving, beautiful light they bring into this world.

My heart is heavy knowing that I am once again not a mother this year.

- Heather