How am I feeling about my infertility.

As I sat down to write, I asked myself ' how am I feeling about my infertility'.

How.
am.
I 
Feeling.
About.
my.
infertility.

hopeless?
hopeful?
indifferent?
casual?
comical?

All and none of the above. There often isn't a certain way I am feeling about it. There isn't a certain adjective I can always describe it as. It's not always defined.

However, it always exists. 
If I see a pregnant woman, it doesn't increase or decrease the fact that I have infertility.
If I long to be a mother, it doesn't mean that it will happen or that it won't happen.

So, 'how am I feeling about my infertility' ?

No words can depict.

- heather