Taking Advice

Needing Help.

I'd rather not.

I don't take advice easily. Mostly, I listen and decide for myself whether or not it even seems plausible. 

I always think I am above other people's advice. I don't mean to feel this way, but it's part of my very essence; independently stubborn. 

It does not come naturally to me.
It DOES come naturally to give advice. 

Taking advice on infertility has been challenging. I find myself almost annoyed when someone tells me what I should be doing. When I should, in fact, be listening.

I am not the expert on infertility.

I know this. I admit this. I identify this. I cannot control it.

Which brings me to the root of needing help; lack of control. It's devastating to feel like despite your every want and intention, you ultimately have no control over the situation. 

Devastating does not even begin to describe it.

- Heather