Stuck

Stuck.

A simple word.

A word that when used one can easily picture the meaning.

I've been stuck on how to even trying to describe this feeling, writing down many thoughts only to erase them.

It feels that way, to not have the ability to get pregnant.

It feels like you are trying to explain yourself, trying to get a grasp on what on is going on, only to stop suddenly, because you can't.

It can't always be explained.

You feel stuck.

You feel stuck because (even though you know it is not true), you fear that the world is moving on without you, and there is nothing you can do about it. 

You can't move backwards, to a time when all of this didn't matter. When the ache didn't fill your heart, when you were able to focus.

You can't move forwards because you have no idea what you should do. 

You're supposed to just wait.... indefinitely.....stuck.

- Heather