TryinG

I'm trying.

I know it may seem like perhaps I'm not.
Like perhaps I'm wallowing in self pity, hopelessness, despair.
Don't get me wrong. 
I am doing all of those things...consistently.

I am trying though.
I'm trying not to over think, some days I am able to bypass those thoughts. I'm able to stop obsessing. I'm able to think clearly, openly, and honestly.

One word continues to occupy my mind.
One word continues to creep into my life, even on my darkest day.
It's a word I sometimes suppress.
It's a word I like to deny.

It means I have to keep trying, despite my yearning to quit.


Resilient:  returning to the original form or position after being bent, compressed, or stretched

- Heather